(( Obvi you need to find this journal to read it or write in it IC. It's left on a desk in her room )) 7/11/2414 "Well I've decided to begin taking note of anything that happens around here. Thinking it's a good idea, considering I'm helping Solour as a therapist. He's getting better after the breakup with Kathrin, and I'm his battle buddy now, which means Krishna won't constantly be yelling at him. Might mean his hatred for the color "red" will subside too. So far he's regaining some mental stability, though he's not quite stable yet. It seems to have to do with his emotions, I already know he's hiding some from me and that's beginning to stress him out. It's bugging me that he won't tell me, though he has promised to soon. I will hold that against him. This problem with Krishna should also help relieve some stress off of him. It's good to see Joshua and Dusk both back me up on this, telling others Solour just needs time to be his normal self again. I've been given permission to wear a medic's helmet as well to keep my forehead cold to ease my head pains, which never end these days with my worrying of Cyprus... I haven't talked to him in awhile, and I can't get hold of him... I'm worried something has happened to him, and so close to our wedding day... Pelaris has tried to ease my mind of this but has only reminded me of it, as I have used other thing's like Solour's problems to block Cyprus out of my mind. Needless to say that isn't working anymore. I can't even begin to think of what's going to happen if I find out of the worst is true. As uncomfortable as it is I've been hiding the engagement ring on my left hand so that when I wear my gauntlet I cannot see it. I do not wish to be reminded. But not like it matters now. This isn't making my head pains any better, either, can't relax at all. My mind is constantly plagued with my own problems and that of other's. I don't know what I'm going to do at this rate. Hell I might have to ask Joshua permission to have an ice pack taped to my head at all times to keep the pain down. ... That last one's not a bad idea, other than having to get a new ice pack every couple of hours. I might have to genuinely ask that. I checked on the three Floran who I aided yesterday at the Union hospital. The one, Fenris, was stable finally. She would have died if I did not treat her then and there. Maybe even Thara, as well. The Floran Wither had the nerve to tell Solour that I did not enjoy being his therapist and that I hated it. She would know nothing. It's rude of her to even talk like that about someone she doesn't know behind her back, especially considering she didn't ask me to save her and her friend's lives. Times like this I wish I were Chieftain of my tribe again so I could make an example of her. But I'm not feral no longer, I have no need to do that. I don't know what else I can ramble on about, so I think I'll leave it at that." -Lily
*The next page, is filled, with five flowers, each one having two blue large petals, and two pink large petals, with one small red heart drawn,seemingly resembling the hearts and flowers drawn in Solour's ship. *
7/12/2414 Well today was "interesting." Kidding. It sucked. Was obvious Solour made the flower's on the previous page, but he did it to thank me for helping him, saying he's fine now. I don't know about that... He's still wearing that mask. I can't remember what he was going to tell me before Marlowe called me off. Don't like him. Kept asking me questions I already answered in an annoying detective style. Called Solour my "boyfriend", and that made me tell him I was engaged. That brought back the fact that I don't know where the hell Cyprus is. Osbourne tried convincing me that he's innocent and didn't put all that meat in Joshua's bathroom. Already told him I'm on neither side, and I'm keeping it that way. To be blunt I really, really don't care. I went to check on Thara today, and the girl kept looking at me like I was some kind of freak. She thought I was someone else, yelling at me to just end it already. Eventually she tried breaking a lamp and was able to stab herself in the stomach with it before Onyx and I knocked her out and fixed her up. They told me she was nuts, but not suicidal! Why didn't anyone restrain her!? Today is just... Horrid. My head is killing me, and I just want to go to sleep, but the pain is unbearable... It hurts too much... -Lily
7/17/2414 Past few days have been a bit stressful... Relaxing somewhat. Solour got shot in the knee but I fixed that a little. He'll be in the hospital for a week at most. He left me a box of chocolates and a stuffed turtle in my locker. He wanted to take me out for dinner tonight but his injury wouldn't let him, bit of a shame. I feel a little guilty for accepting the offer, but I know it's a kind gesture on his part, and it'll help relieve some of my stress too, so I may as well. Though he might be asking too much when he asked for a kiss. I'll think about that. What else... Oh right. Pelaris tried to commit suicide, but Solour and I stopped him thank goodness. He's recovering well now, though he lost his arm after he went to go visit his friends in his old sector... He wouldn't say exactly what but I think his father did it... I'm worried about him... ... Also I forgot to mention Pelaris somehow got pictures of me naked in his hot tub, so I need to get to the bottom of that too. He gave the pictures to Solour, who disposed of them. Though an itch at the back of my head makes me guess he probably looked at them first... Just a hunch. Osbourne went AWOL, as well, a Glitch named P-8 helped him escape Union somehow. I'm still trying to figure out how Osbourne escaped with his injuries. He had multiple broken bones... It doesn't make sense... Still a lot tugging at my mind these days... Save for the obvious I don't need to mention. But oh well. -Lily
