::> Begin_plybck ::> Load_plybck "Warning" Hello, to those who read this, it is an honor that you have taken an interest with the inner workings of my mind, and while I wish I could tell you what I have been registering for the past week or so, I humbly request you do not read this further. The words written here are for my private viewing and reviewing only, and I would appreciate if you would leave at once...of course, if your intentions are of the evil variety, then I suppose at this point, I most likely lack the capabilities to stop you. I deeply apologize for anything that had lead to this moment, if such events have occurred. ::>plybck_cmplte ::> record_plybck Stmnt_1 (----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------) It is calm today, an acceptable change over what past days have offered. I am finally coming to conclusion on the feelings I had felt a few days before, words like anger, sadness, negativity. What I wish to understand are feelings Emma had previously made me feel...however, considering her admittance to those feelings coming from false intentions, I think it will be some time before I can properly register said emotions in an instance of true simulation. Stmnt_2 (----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------) Sadness is a bracer, a sort of...force which triggers inside of the body to instill negativity, possibly the worst feeling one can have, it comes from the refusal of accepting events that have transpired that harm the person in a way, such as...losing some one. Stmnt_3 (----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------) I am researching other feelings, of course, but sadness is the feeling that has affected me most ever since Emma's passing. I suppose I should thank her for such events, as they have at least opened my eyes...or eye, to a multitude of concepts in the real world, I have said words I do not fully understand yet, but only felt right...and that alone is what I wish to one day understand the most. Stmnt_4 (----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------) Emma's concept of the world was flawed, I feel it was something holding her back from seeing the good the universe offered, she wished for the suffering of humanity, but I feel she didn't consider what exactly humans actually feel, she said she was broken, and I think that comes from a lack of sadness in her mind. If she truly wished to have humanity suffer, then I feel like she has already achieved this goal...the feeling of sadness was overwhelming, but it was also a realization to accept the world for what it is, an opening to seeing and appreciating the better side of things to come. Rcrdngsav Logsvd_"Sdns01", 6/19 7:38PM, lngth 12.67423ns
::> record_plybck Stmnt_1 (----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------) I am beginning to malfunction too much, as such, I've chosen to begin storing errors for immediate disposal while I am alone. These errors are starting to terrify me in ways I cannot comprehend, my brother makes his existence seem so easy compared to mine, he barely broke down when I told him the unfortunate news of Emma's passing. Stmnt_2 (----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------) Maybe I am overreacting, but considering the list of occurrences over such a short time in my life might have caused multiple lines of code being rewritten, but not considerate of the directives set in place. Stmnt_3 (----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------) Listing down what has occurred. 1. I have met a kind synth named Emma, who helped me develop strange new emotions I cannot fully comprehend or understand. 2. Days later, she was a fraud, and tortured me mentally and emotionally, making me completely rewrite my directive and perform a proper reboot. 3. I have been told of adult subjects such as sex, this I wish to save for last, in terms of figuring things out. 4. A female collapsed due to radiation poisoning, and made me feel odd when I had to walk her to M'kali for some proper clothing. I forgot to bring her up, a grave apology to her, M'kali is a kind madame that has assisted me on occasions, though I am feeling similar feelings to being near Emma with her, she has been nothing but help. I am terrified though, what I felt near Emma were feelings that lead to disaster, I do not wish to cause similar, irreparable damage to M'kali, or my brothers. Rcrdngsav Logsvd_"wrry01", 6/21 12:09PM, lngth 7.325942ns
::> record_plybck Stmnt_1 (----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------) I have read through the public writings of Garden Maiden Camtick, and thus decided to attempt the dancing known as "Waltzing.", only leading to my constant falling and scratching of my armor. I was nearly ready to give up, but a miracle occurred thanks to a human in a strange vest, who assisted me in learning. Stmnt_2 (----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------) While attempting to learn frm this human, Camtick showed up, and offered me the opportunity to dance, I began to feel things I had little info of, emotions I have felt before, thus I was able to contain the large amount of errors I was having with my directives. This feeling is happiness. Stmnt_3 (----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------) Happiness is a drug, it can cause one to lose sense of awareness, but can also improve ones mood to accept and cope with the world more easily. I believe I witnessed happiness while with Camtick, I would say she should feel honored, but I do not wish to be offensive. I hope that I can continue to feel happiness for as long as possible, I will not expect this feeling to last, but for now, I think I shall enjoy this drug while deactivated. Logsvd_"hppy01", 6/22 11:17PM, lngth 16.532634ns ::> Error ::> sve_plybck corrupted, loading backup firmware. ::> load complete
::> Rewrite complete. ::> Testing initiative "voice" ::> Recording "Omega" load success ::> Recording "Sparrow" load success ::> Recording "M'kali" load success ::> Recording "Emma" load success ::>Note "This is it." "This is it." ::>Note "I'll either come out with a ruined mess of a voice, or an accurate one." "I'll either come out with a ruined mess of a voice, or an accurate one." ::>Lets hope this works. ::>ERROR: "Lets" is not a correct command! ::>Note: Oops... "Oops..." ::>Run "voicesimulationunit" ::>Rewrite in progress... ::>Note: I hope Camtick likes it. "I hope Camtick likes it."
::>Running Voice modifier tests. ::>Say "Hello, Omega, how are you doing today?" "Hey, Omega! What's happening?" ::>Say "Maybe it's too generic...it's the right tone, but I feel like I could do much better." "It's lame." ::>Run "voicetest2" ::>Say "Hello, Omega, how are you doing today?" " 'Sup, Omega! How're things going?" ::>Say "No, that's even worse..." "Nah, that's stupid." ::>Say "I guess I'll have to work with the first one, it's my best attempt at a first...real voice, my only hope is that people don't find it an oddity coming from me. Perhaps I can ask Dale or Wolfram for their opinion?" "It needs work, but oh well, first voice technically, so I guess it'll have to do, people will have to put up with it comin' from a one-eyed cyclops like me." ::>Say "..." "..." ::>Run "voicetest1" ::>Say "Much better, beginning reboot." "There we go, time to reboot..." ::>Load reboot_anal.ysis ::>Checking... ::>10% ::>20% ::>30% ::>40% ::>50% ::>60% ::>70% ::>80% ::>90% ::>!00% ::> Analysis complete, proceed with reboot?(y/n) ::>y ::>Reboot in progress... ::>1%
::> record_plybck stmnt_1 (----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------) I no longer work at Mud, Ernal made the announcement to ban all outsiders, save for those still working in Mud. Technically, this also included me, so why did I leave? Ernal took the cheap way out. I feel like he could have done many different options compared to his decision to ban out hundreds, maybe thousands of people who seeked safety and reassurance in Mud. For example, while gathering what little belongings I had, I saw a few people visually stricken by the ordeal. Ernal should have done better, he should have given the guard more funding, or at least set up an application system to cut out the hostile to the friendly. stmnt_2 (----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------) Of course, the discussion of what exactly I should do is up in the wind, Camtick is my girlfriend now, and has since offered me space on her ship. My present goal is to locate another, SAFE place for us to stay, of course, Camtick is most likely not banned from Mud, so if she wishes to continue her work there, I don't see any problem, her opinion is much different from mine. addendum (----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------) I shouldn't really make these a habit, but Camtick's voice is very...impressive, compared to many Glitch, at least only when she whispers. I need to finish up my hypothesis on anger, first...so this will have to wait. Logsvd_"musing01", 7/29 12:21PM, lngth 7.124328ns
