A real second chance - Remy's personal logs.

Log 119
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so ya its comfirmed me and leon are still friends!!!
im rly happy about that yo hes a nice kid he deserves better than some gay cyborg trying to kill him haha
4srs tho, i hope he understands the limitations w my programming, he needs to be careful!!!

visited him @ his apartment 2day, had a lil talk, it nice
he kinda got so sleepy he just dozed off on my lap lmao it was rly awkward
anyway i just got off, let him on that couch, took his blanket from upstairs and tucked him in haha im so G A Y

anyway like, quietly left after that
its rly nice having friends

 

Log 120
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sometimes do u ever just get up and be all
nah
and go back to bed

I WISH I COULD DO THAT

 

Log 121
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times i think
im going to die and no one is going to care

thats not true, right? aissa would miss me. leon would miss me. clara... might miss me.
the scary thing is
im not sure if suwedi would
at least, he wont show it.

agh
i need to watch some numi to wash these thoughts out

 

Log 122
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do androids dream?
no
no they dont

shut the fuck up

 

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Log 124
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also have a sudden intense NEED to brush suwedi's hair like wtf
its such a cute frickin cut i just wanna
brush it
brush
brush
BRUSH
I WANNA BRUSH IT

 

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Log 126
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some avian dude named corvus messaged me on starnet all AYYYY U REMIND ME OF SHAUN
i s2g i am so sick of hearing that name lmfao

anyway like we decide to meet up at stark and he be all woa o____o
and im like haha what
UR SHAUN BUT ONLY CYBERNETICS AND ALSO A SKIRT
and im just ugh GROAN and i start explaining and

have u guys ever seen an avian cry

that shit cray like those poor bord tears oh nO DONT C RY AND I WAS JUST STANDING THER E U M
like i guess he was shaun's friend? idek

and before he left he said he liked the "new shaun"

and im just
what the fuck

im not "new" shaun
im not shaun
im remy ok
im who i am

 

Log 127
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ugh how can my bf be so cute yet look so ANGRY all the time that shit frickin CRAY
like
wait lemme draw this

 

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Log 128
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ANYWAY

went to the MILLS again. that place is growing on me.
mainly wanted to have some time w suwedi like HALF DATE OR SOMETHING idK
but like, suddenly i saw wintermute and he looked fucked UP

ugh, huge gash on his throat, patched up, though.
makes me think of the cuts on my arms.
hhh

in any case, we talked and... im just glad that i can be a friend, u kno
like
he needs someone to tell him its ok and to listen to him and not butt in when unneeded
ill try to help fill that position

in any case, we finished talking, exchanged contact deets (he lost my holocard lmao) and i went upstairs and THIS LADY PULLS A GUN ON ME LIKE WTF and suwedi was like YO calm ur fuckin tits dat my bf
i was scared but also flattered for some reason like ayyyy thats right im his bf PLS DONT SHOOT ME ;___;

and we had some talk and i just let hiM talk and i forgot to ask the THINGS and im just im so stupid grgrhrghrhgrhgrhgrhghrgh
also i have to learn to desensitize myself w his work face like srsly HE IS JUST CONSTANTLY
(눈_\\\ )
(눈____\\\ )
(눈___________________\\\ )
when deep inside i know hes like (✿◕‿‿\\\ )

anyway he had to leave bc groans emperor work stuff (i srsly need 2 find the time 2 ask him those things ayyy)
and then he was like ok u have fun now bb but i need u back at lum in like 1hr bc paperwork and im like ayyyyyy ok

so i went downstairs 2 talk to aissa and she be like havin a FUCKED UP HAND and i was like yo what UP and she was like long story lmao
and then????????? flame suddenly came outta nowhere like
i spent hours trying to find thAT TRACKER ON ME EVEN THO THEY SAID NO TRACKERS ON U AYYY
and im like no stfu i know theres one (i still haven't found it I THINK its my eye tho)
nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn anywho shenanigans shenanigans and then i remembered i had to go back to lum like HOURS ago

and im here doing backlogs of paperwork
fml gj remy u frickin NERD this is what u get for SLACKIN OFF

 

Log 129
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notes 2 self:

• ask suwedi about my behaviour back when i was compromised (gotta jot down NOTES on dat frickin shit yo like ayyy i dont want that shit again)
• also ask him aboUT THAT THING U WANTE DTO ASK SINCE DAY 1 ALRDY
• buy numipedia digital edition 4 wintermute n leon
• get aissa numi oven mitts
• get security footage of that guy whO KEEPS TA KI NG MY DINOSAUR CHICKEN NY GEGTS FROM DTHE F RI DG
• feed numitchi and toilet train her like wtf stop pooping everywhere on the screen tamagotchis are cute but sTUPID
• stop thinking about dongs so much ESP NOT HIS DONG I MEAN SURE HE PROBABLY SEEN URS BUT THAT DOESNT JUSTIFY
• shove chicken nuggets in my mouth until i die

 

Log 130
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who the fuck do u think u fucking ARE
i hate him
i hate you
i dont fucking care what shaun mendoza meant to you hes not me and he never will be

as far as im concerned there is only one suwedi
and hes not an incompetent, pathetic, delusional lowlife.

 

Log 131
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ugh, got some armour tailoured. lightweight, but would do in a pinch.
durasteel lined jacket. armoured leggings with a thin impervium weave. a steel helmet.

they make do for now. i carry my numirizer everywhere now. a tazer isn't enough, plus, i already have that embed in my arm. heh.
i'll be ready
i hope.

 

Log 132
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talked to the clique ayyy
hoping this shit gets resolved soon
i dont want to kill anyone but i cant see this ending any other way

 

Log 133
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>>> synced with portable device IPDA422<<<
>>> local portable device name: "yungthaprince" <<<

 

Log 134
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>>>unsynced with CPDA912, IPDA422<<<
>>>local portable device names "PinkTiger69" and "yungthaprince"<<<
>>>syncing options temporarily disabled<<<

>>>synced devices: LLK571 onboard shipcode NMI461 and HPDA111<<<
>>>lock sync: TRUE<<<

 

Log 135
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DO YOU LIKE SEEING ME CUTTING MYSELF DO YOU LIKE SEEING ME HURT MYSELF YES YOU DO HA HA HA
I KNOW YOU SEE ME SMEAR BLOOD ON THE SCREEN I KNOW YOU'RE LAUGHING

 

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Log 137
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i h ave n o i de a when yo ur ;e no t loo k ingr